Wednesday, June 27, 2007

The Center Of The Solar System

Contrary to popular belief, the Sun was not the center of the solar system when I was a kid. The center of the solar system back then was 186 Chestnut St. Everything & everyone revolved around it. And I didn't call it the Sun - I called it home. It's rays didn't reach far - only a 1/2 block down to Bergen Ave & a 1/2 block the opposite way to Boyd St. As I got older it reached a few blocks further, but gravity always pulled me back to my sun.

My father's parents owned the house & they lived on the first floor while we lived on the second. In fact, my father was born in that house & shared it with four siblings.

It was a non-descript house on a block of non-descript houses. Mostly 2-family homes built around 1900 with narrow alleys between them. There were no front yards really, as the sidewalks almost brushed the porches. The backyards were small. I guess the average house was 50' wide & 75' - 100' deep. The street was just wide enough for 2 cars to narrowly pass each other while avoiding the parked cars on each side.

The sun, years later & deteriorating.




We lived in the 4 rooms upstairs. I shared a small bedroom with my year-younger sister until we moved out of the house when I was 12, having lived there all 12 years of my life. What was neat was the wooden ladder in the hallway which led up to a large, mostly empty attic. That was our playground when it rained.

My grandparents downstairs had 5 rooms with the dining room as the centerpiece for all holiday ocassions. The living room could be sealed off by its sliding wood doors. The basement was a dark, dreay place with the furnance & with a very long work bench with all sorts of tools that I did not understand. My uncle used to skin & fillet the rabbits down there that he had hunted for. Yuck. There was a small dirt filled extention that my grandfather used to store the wine he made - dandelion wine also, I'm told.

I remember my grandmother once toasting her bread over the open flame of her stove. Don't ask me why. I remember her with her high pitch yelling through the kitchen window at my sister for throwing stones at the window. "Sissy...SissyLynne...stop throwing stones at the window." Only they weren't stones - my grandmother's kitchen curtains were on fire & she mistook the crackling for stones! Another time my sister & I were down the block playing when the fire trucks rolled by. Excited, we chased after them, only to have them stop at our house & the firemen rush in. It was quite a shock for us. Turned out to be a furnace problem.

As I said, this was the center of the solar system & as proof to that fact there were always aunts, uncles, cousins & other relatives & friends of my grandparents drawn to it & stopping over all the time - especially during a holiday. The house attracted a lot of people.

I used to be terrified taking the garbage out -the alley was very narrow & pitch black. I just knew all sort of killers & evil-doers awaited each time I went out there. To this day I swear I heard the sound of a ufo land in our backyard, but was too terrified to go look. But night wasn't scary at Halloween. I tried to stay out as late as I could to get that one more candy bar or gum or nickel.

Until I was about 8-9, most of my school friends were on that block. Freddy Kennedy lived next door as did Barbara Boyle. Across the street was Evelyn March & down from her was Marion & Barbara Smart & next to them was Neil Armstrong. Further down on my side was Jerry & Dickie Watt. Next to them was an older kid I only knew as B-Boy. Frankie Degnan lived on the corner of Boyd in a 12 family building & around the corner from him was Sherry Fulton. Opposite Frankie were the O'neill sisters - but they were a few years older. Our backyard faced the backyard of Bobby Brown on Devon St. There was Rose & Tom McNish around the corner on Boyd St - sometimes I hated them. They being Irish, whenever Notre Dame won a football game they got to have pizza for supper. I know I've left some kids out. The evil VanDerLippe's lived across the street & they were always yelling at us for playing by their house. But the were about 160 yrs old & died off soon.

On the corner of Boyd & Chestnut stood a very small store - the only one nestled amongst the houses that ran down the streets in that area. For us kids it was our Mecca, for our parents it was a convenience. Harry's Candy Store. Harry & Thelma, his wife, owned it. They looked about 97 yrs old to us. Harry was a short, skinny guy & Thelma was the taller, heavy-set partner. Any extra pennies we had went to Harry in exchange for the yummy candy, loose & packaged, that he sold. We would collect soda bottles & bring them to Harry, where they were redeemed for cash - 2 cents a small bottle, a nickel for a large bottle. The proceeds went straight back to Harry after we hemmed & hawed about what candy to get. He sold other things I suppose, like milk & cereal & sugar & cigarettes & whatever parents needed, but that wasn't kid's stuff so we never paid attention. Thelma died one year & Harry ran the store for some years afterward, then he closed it. I ran into Harry once years later when I was an adult & he looked the same. I wanted to smack him for closing the store.

The street was our playground - roller skating, gutter ball, biking, hop-scotch, box ball, kick-the-can, tag & it's variations like freeze-tag & Chinese tag, hide-n-seek & whatever else. We used the four corners at Boyd St, as bases for box ball & stick ball. Back then most families had only one car, so there was room to play on the street.

The street had a fair amount of trees - & no they were not chestnut trees - oak & maple mostly. The one thing great about the trees, besides shade in the summer heat, was when the leaves fell in the Fall. There were a series of piles of the collected leaves along the gutter running down the block. We used to jump in the piles & hide under them. The adults would burn the leave piles - don't tell today's code officers about that! The smell of the burning leaves on a crisp Fall day was great - I still love that smell.

If I had to pick anytime in my life when life was the best, when things were simple & uncomplicated, it would be those years.

The sun - my house - became unstable when I was 11. My grandmother died. Things just didn't seem the same after that. There were less visitors, a more somber feeling or maybe a feeling of profound change. I still had my friends -but things were different. When I was 12 the sun - my house - imploded. My grandfather died suddenly. As irony would have it, the sun killed him. He was 71 & decided to paint it on a ladder in August when it was 90 degrees out. Duh. Heart attack, no heart attack, heart attak, no heart attack - watcha ya think? Two of his children, my aunt & uncle, quickly sold off the house - for $11,000, down from an asking price of $18,000. My parents, my sister & I were quickly evicted & moved to a 6-family apartment 3 blocks away. It was another solar system altogether. But it was never & never could be my sun - my home. My home was still at 186 Chestnut St - but now filled with strangers in my room, in my attic.

I hate change.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

The Flu Made Me A Conservative

It was Junior year of high school. Springtime...because I say so. Having spent a miserable week in-doors in bed with the flu & not sure that there was an out-doors anymore, I was finally allowed to leave the confines of our little railroad apartment & venture into "fresh air". (By the way, don't you just have a feeling of all-out love for the kid that brings you all the homework you missed? Uh, yeah)

It was magnificent sitting on the open porch - the sun, the breeze, trees with leaves even. After an hour of this crap I was bored. Not being an avid reader at the time unless the dialogue was wrapped in a balloon , I mosyied?, mosied?, mozied?, walked the 3 blocks to the magazine store.

Unfortunately, all they had were...magazines. Some comics, but who the hell read Little Lulu? So I looked at the magazines. Time, Look, Life, US News, all the usual things I saw in a doctor's office (having been a recent visitor to one). My eye caught the cover of this one magazine. Can't remember what the heck was on the cover. And it was kinda thin for a magazine.

Well, I flipped through it. Lotta words in that little thing. Where were all the pictures? But then an article caught my eye. Forget what the article was about, something about politics, but I read it even though there was no balloon around it. I was like, wow, yeah they are soo right. I went on to skim a few other articles & columns & like wow, they are soo right too. So between Little Lulu & this mag, the mag won.

Got home, went back onto the porch & devoured the magazine. It was so right. Everything they said. I never knew political philosophies really existed, much less me having one. But it was all there in front of me. I found a voice for what I loosely felt, but could never define or even think of defining.

That magazine was William F. Buckely's National Review. It told me what I didn't know - that I was a Conservative. From that moment on I had a political philosophy. And each issue of the magazine from then on reaffirmed that.

I still am a Conservative after all these years & still read the mag on line. So I guess maybe the flu was worth it that year. And I'm still looking for that kid who brought me such joy.

Monday, June 25, 2007

1 Little, 2 Little, 3 Little Teachers...

Okay, this is the post that the world has been waiting for. I'm gonna see how kool I am by rattling off every teacher I had for a homeroom.


Kindergarten - Mrs. Carter ...........McKinley school

1st grade - Mrs. McKelvie

2nd grade - Miss Hood

3rd grade - Miss Travisano

4th grade - Mrs. Goodness

5th grade - Miss Fuller

6th grade - Mr. Perry

7th grade - Mrs. Robinson Washington school

8th grade - Mrs. Robinson/Mr. Reto Washington/Franklin schools

9th - 12th - Miss Micchelli high school

Feel free to read as many times as you wish.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Kindergarten - Decider of Fate

My second earliest memory is my mother taking me to my first day of school - kindergarten to be exact. I vividly recall walking up the 15 or so steps of McKinley School(k-6). It was built in the early 1900-s & named after President McKinley. It was the typical old style school building of red brick with gray shale, high slanted roof. It was 2 floors high, with part of the basement used as a gym & auditorium. On either side of the building was a dirt/gravel playground which had only dirt/gravel & nothing else. There was a boy's side entrance & a girl's side entrance. It was a small, square building, but loomed large to me at my age of 5.

As I entered the building with my mother I could smell the freshness of paint & varnish mixed with the oldness of wood. It was a new smell to me & seemed to make the building official. I loved the smell.

I recall going into the main office, then to the kindergarten class & meeting the teacher. That's about it for kindergarten, because I was only in kindergarten for 2 weeks.

They had me take a test to see if I would stay in kindergarter or be put straight into 1st grade. I vaguely recall taking the test. It consisted of questions like which is the big cat & circle it, What color is the yellow ball & circle it, which is the circle & circle it.

Apparantly I passed with flying colors, because I was ushered into 1st grade.

But that is not the point of this post. The point is how one's life can change, depending upon staying in kindergarten or being moved to 1st grade.

If I had failed the test & stayed in kindergarten for the year I would have had a whole different set of friends through my school years than what I had. My intellectual & emotional development may have been different. My experiences & adventures with them would have been different than what I did have with the friends I grew up with. I would not have been part of the 1st 8th grade graduating class in the brand new Franklin School. My entry into the real world at barely 17 would instead have been a barely 18. I would not have become good friends in high school with Bruce & hang out at his house all the time. And I would never have met his younger sister. And I would never have married her like I did & would never have had the daughter I did.

A lot of things would have been different - all for the sake of skipping kindergarten.

But then, that's the way it is with every moment, isn't it? At a corner, a walk to the right takes you to a new love, a walk to the left takes you into the grill of a large bus. Every moment is like that.

Some people believe in the infinite permutation of events in a persons life - meaning that every possible outcome is going on in a person's life. One permutation takes you to the right & love while at the same time another permutation takes you to the left & the bus, while yet other infinite permutations takes you to every other possibility. You in this plan of existence are only aware of this plane of existence, naturally. Infinite permutations of me have it a lot worse, but then, infinite permutations of me have it a lot better.

I wonder if I should have played dumb on that test?

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Earliest, Earliest Memory

I remember that I was born at a very early age. When I was 3 months old...no, that too early. My earliest memory was probably when I was 4. It was a Spring day as I recall, because it was a breezy, warm day. The heat of summer wasn't apparent. I was sitting on the wooden porch steps of our house.

I recall seeing a man (well I guess anyone over 10 was a man to me back then) walking down the street with a newspaper open & held at arms length. He was reading while walking. I remember thinking, wow, that's so cool (well cool wasn't used back then), I wish I could read the paper too. I can't wait until I start going to school.

I eventually did start going to school. Funny thing is that I was never wild about school while going. But I did start reading newspapers, to the point I devoured them later on in life. Now I don't touch them - got me the handy-dandy Internet for all the news I'll ever need.